[ in the dim late night and shadows, she'll see his pale eyes as they focus on her while they pass under a lamp, his expression closed off, understandably so. it's only when he faces back around and his eyes turn away that she'll catch a flash of a quiet rage, as distant and cold as starfire. his voice remains as even as it ever is though. ]
Several months. I had completed rebuilding mt realm.
[ A touch of her own rage comes through there, though it's tired. ]
But I'm pretty close to bloody useless here. I've got no books, no supplies -- I'm making everything up from memory and scrounging shit from the grocery store, and the whole thing might not even be magic. And if it is, it's way beyond me.
[ She hasn't said this out loud to anyone. Maybe it's the late hour, maybe it's because he's already opened the door to saying the things you don't say to anyone else. Maybe it's because he's the only person who's seen her flat in most of the last year. ]
[ maybe it's because she knows he's good at keeping secrets without judgement, too. well, too much judgement, and that he wouldn't use such vulnerable moments against her. he glances sidelong at her again, quiet while she spouts off until she's finished. ]
Hope can be a powerful tool as well. You should not discard it so easily.
I did experience such an occurrence with her. Thankfully, that seemed to bring the event to a lull for the night until we could leave the following morning.
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Several months. I had completed rebuilding mt realm.
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[ She rubs a hand over her face. ]
I'm -- Christ. I don't know.
[ She wants to express sympathy, or something, but what is there even to say? ]
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[ A touch of her own rage comes through there, though it's tired. ]
But I'm pretty close to bloody useless here. I've got no books, no supplies -- I'm making everything up from memory and scrounging shit from the grocery store, and the whole thing might not even be magic. And if it is, it's way beyond me.
[ She hasn't said this out loud to anyone. Maybe it's the late hour, maybe it's because he's already opened the door to saying the things you don't say to anyone else. Maybe it's because he's the only person who's seen her flat in most of the last year. ]
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Hope can be a powerful tool as well. You should not discard it so easily.
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Sure. I probably shouldn't.
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[ he falls quiet while they turn some corner, taking a few steps more before speaking again. ]
Are you still troubled by nightmares?
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I appreciate you didn't go looking to find out.
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Oh, hell if I know. Long enough to see Astra and Rachel again and exchange how-do-you-dos.
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[ he glances to her again. ]
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Did you get chased by any of them? I mean, do you know what was happening in there?
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[ She remembers the encounter with Kim and amends: ] Or you murdered them. And the people around you experienced it. Hallucinated it with you.
As my counselor used to say, it's the sort of thing that can undo your progress.
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It was not dissimilar to dreams of one's death.
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